The days remain long and cold and the night worse. I wonder about her every second, I pray for her every day and I pray to God and all the saints that she returns to me. I feel that we never gave us the shot we needed to. She was my best friend, lover, & soul mate. She is the first word on my mouth in the morning and the last at night. Without her there is simply no meaning in my life. I love and miss her beyond words.