Tonight I have been thinking a lot about what it was like to lay next to you with your back against me and how I sometimes couldn't tell where you began and I ended. Someday if God sees fit to bring you back to me I hope we can read this and you can see how much you truly mean to me. Tomorrow I am taking a trip to the Shrine of Saint Pio. I have been praying to both him and St Jude every night. I don't know what else to do. I pray for you that God heals what is inside you that made you push everyone away. I love you.